First, I should tell you that I and my boyfriend have been dating for almost a year and just last couple of months we are officially in boyfriend and girlfriend status. It started to get serious very soon and after few months of dating he was already living with me in my mom’s house with me. However, he was working 4 hours of driving from my home and was living only during the weekends. Just recently, couple of weeks ago, we moved in to our own place and since then everything has been great till this happened. I came home after work in the middle of the week and there was a link opened on the computer with loaded live sex chat models list. I rushed to ask him about that because it really bothered me. I knew he was watching porn and I have no problem with that, but it was live interaction with girls – that’s what bothered me.
After a few days we had a chit chat about porn and I told him about that site I found open on computer. I asked him if he was using it just to watch or also for other things, he told that that he wasn’t. As far as I know him, he is not a good liar. I know that in relationships couples should trust each other and so on, but I asked him to log on and let me see what is all about. Well, he did that, logged on and what do we have here – he had been in contact with ten different girls who perform as models on that site.
Now I don’t know what to feel, he tells me that he is felling bad about all this situation and that he loves me but screwed up the most important thing in relationship. I’m a mess right now and don’t know what to do with all these questions that are sitting in my head now. I’m wondering why he needs other intimate interaction with girls? He is telling me that the reason is his stupidity. He is telling me that he just had a few chat sessions with each of these girls and he had never showed anything, nor ever had cam to cam chat with any of these webcam girls, but my gut feeling is telling me that there might be something that he is not telling me.
I don’t want to become a controlling girlfriend out of fear and ask him what he is doing and where is he going and not trust him. The thing is that I don’t have any trust left with my boyfriend so I would advice guys who are doing this to stop or there will be problems with your girlfriend.